Friday, January 31, 2014
Bobbie's Takes: Take an adventure
Bobbie's Takes: Take an adventure: Have you ever thought about just getting away? #Takinganadventure? I have and did. My adventure was #Ireland. I spent 10 days in this amazi...
Take an adventure
Have you ever thought about just getting away? #Takinganadventure? I have and did.
My adventure was #Ireland. I spent 10 days in this amazingly, beautiful country. I beat all odds and had the
determination of seeing this country.
I will go more into this later on but for now, I want to just touch on some of the places we visited. #Dublin was huge and so busy. Trying to drive into the city was a feat within itself, thank goodness #Rachel was young and seem to have no fear, especially driving on the opposite side of the streets.. When we finally arrived to the hotel, we took a stroll around the area.. I bet we walked more than 20 blocks and could have kept walking. We were in awe of this beautiful place.. But dang was it so cold. We stopped in the oldest pub built and had lunch then out again;looking around. Every street was something new to see and absolutely beautiful. The people were nice.
#PowersCourt was .. words cannot tell you how beautiful these grounds were. Huge estate, lovely gardens and the ponds and statutes were something out of a movie or picture book, but it was real. I could not get enough, but again, dang it was cold, about that time, i was wishing i had brought my trench coat.. :)
#WaterFord was a special place. We visited the #WaterFordCrystal buliding. You have to see this;how they make these amazing pieces from start to finish. How long they have to apprentice to be able to work on them and what they do to make them as you see on the shelf.
#BlarneyCastle. Oh my lord, just a shell of itself but still an awesome site. I could take my imagination back to a time where i could see or imagine how it once was. The dining room, the cooks room, the bedrooms. I went through the dungeon a bit until it became too dark and too small for me to climb through, i became a bit frightening and crawled back out to catch up to my young friend. We walked all over that castle and found our way up to the #BlarneyStone.." Holy cow, you want me to lay how and reach where to kiss what?" "You are gonna hold me, right? " I kissed it.. :) then we went around on the grounds to a #PoisonGarden, yes, you heard me, a poison garden.. It was a site to see.
We made our way to the #NationalPark we walked and became lost(walked off the beaten path,you could say) and walked and walked for hours.. There were 11,000sq miles of that park and I believe we walked every inch of it and more trying to find our way back to where we parked. Rode on my first #Jaunt ( believe that is how you spell it) how wonderful that horse was and the driver was a talker, but damn it was so cold and by that time my blasted camera and phone ran out of juice and no pictures other than with Rachel's , she brought , thankfully, she had a better one and let me take some pictures .. thank you , thank you..
We drove #TheRingofKerry, it was oh Jesus, I found my coming to Jesus moments going down that road. I have to hand it to the bus drivers that make it through those tiny curves. We were in the car and almost kissed a few stone walls along the way. Sheep running down or up the road, how on earth? It was fun to see.
#TheCliffsofMoher you gotta stop and see this one.. I felt as if I were on top of the world and as I was standing alone at one point.. I stopped and looked up to the heaven's and said to my mom.. "Mom, I made it. The trip we talked about for so long and wanted to take, I am here and I know you are here with me on this journey. The journey we wanted to take , to walk the same places as our family before us. I wish you were here in the physical sense, but I know you are with me and in my heart, you are with me on this incredible journey".
When you do travel to #Ireland.. you need to stay in Bed and Breakfast. They are so great and the food; you can't beat it. We saw some great places and wonderful people along the way and as I do plan on going back, I know that I can't replace the steps that I made this journey. We got lost several times but found our way and along that way, some of the most beautiful countryside you could ever see.. And the man on the horse was right. 50 shades of grey..... Ireland has 50 shades of green... everywhere was green.
Take a journey, take an adventure. Take time out to find yourself.
Thanks-----
My adventure was #Ireland. I spent 10 days in this amazingly, beautiful country. I beat all odds and had the
determination of seeing this country.
I will go more into this later on but for now, I want to just touch on some of the places we visited. #Dublin was huge and so busy. Trying to drive into the city was a feat within itself, thank goodness #Rachel was young and seem to have no fear, especially driving on the opposite side of the streets.. When we finally arrived to the hotel, we took a stroll around the area.. I bet we walked more than 20 blocks and could have kept walking. We were in awe of this beautiful place.. But dang was it so cold. We stopped in the oldest pub built and had lunch then out again;looking around. Every street was something new to see and absolutely beautiful. The people were nice.
#PowersCourt was .. words cannot tell you how beautiful these grounds were. Huge estate, lovely gardens and the ponds and statutes were something out of a movie or picture book, but it was real. I could not get enough, but again, dang it was cold, about that time, i was wishing i had brought my trench coat.. :)
#WaterFord was a special place. We visited the #WaterFordCrystal buliding. You have to see this;how they make these amazing pieces from start to finish. How long they have to apprentice to be able to work on them and what they do to make them as you see on the shelf.
#BlarneyCastle. Oh my lord, just a shell of itself but still an awesome site. I could take my imagination back to a time where i could see or imagine how it once was. The dining room, the cooks room, the bedrooms. I went through the dungeon a bit until it became too dark and too small for me to climb through, i became a bit frightening and crawled back out to catch up to my young friend. We walked all over that castle and found our way up to the #BlarneyStone.." Holy cow, you want me to lay how and reach where to kiss what?" "You are gonna hold me, right? " I kissed it.. :) then we went around on the grounds to a #PoisonGarden, yes, you heard me, a poison garden.. It was a site to see.
We made our way to the #NationalPark we walked and became lost(walked off the beaten path,you could say) and walked and walked for hours.. There were 11,000sq miles of that park and I believe we walked every inch of it and more trying to find our way back to where we parked. Rode on my first #Jaunt ( believe that is how you spell it) how wonderful that horse was and the driver was a talker, but damn it was so cold and by that time my blasted camera and phone ran out of juice and no pictures other than with Rachel's , she brought , thankfully, she had a better one and let me take some pictures .. thank you , thank you..
We drove #TheRingofKerry, it was oh Jesus, I found my coming to Jesus moments going down that road. I have to hand it to the bus drivers that make it through those tiny curves. We were in the car and almost kissed a few stone walls along the way. Sheep running down or up the road, how on earth? It was fun to see.
#TheCliffsofMoher you gotta stop and see this one.. I felt as if I were on top of the world and as I was standing alone at one point.. I stopped and looked up to the heaven's and said to my mom.. "Mom, I made it. The trip we talked about for so long and wanted to take, I am here and I know you are here with me on this journey. The journey we wanted to take , to walk the same places as our family before us. I wish you were here in the physical sense, but I know you are with me and in my heart, you are with me on this incredible journey".
When you do travel to #Ireland.. you need to stay in Bed and Breakfast. They are so great and the food; you can't beat it. We saw some great places and wonderful people along the way and as I do plan on going back, I know that I can't replace the steps that I made this journey. We got lost several times but found our way and along that way, some of the most beautiful countryside you could ever see.. And the man on the horse was right. 50 shades of grey..... Ireland has 50 shades of green... everywhere was green.
Take a journey, take an adventure. Take time out to find yourself.
Thanks-----
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Bobbie's Takes: Another Ah-ha moment
Bobbie's Takes: Another Ah-ha moment: Here's another Ah-ha moment for me. When my oldest daughter had an apartment while finishing college, I ordered her some curtains and...
Another Ah-ha moment
Here's another Ah-ha moment for me.
When my oldest daughter had an apartment while finishing college, I ordered her some curtains and had to purchase 4 of them. They looked great had the panel on the back to help with the heat and cold.
Well, no one told me you could not put these in the wash.. Who the hell buys curtains that you can't wash? Me, obviously..
They looked a bit dusty and needed a good cleaning and what did smart butt do?? take them down and shove them in the wash and dryer. The wash went fine, just taking them out of the dryer was another story.. Do you remember as a child when you fell asleep with gum in your mouth and woke up with it matted? No, I guess that was another one of my moments.. :) Anyways, I get them out of the dryer and they are just all a big hot mess. If I could kick myself, I would...
I try to make myself look at the tags of things before I wash.. Note---- if you need something shrunk--- i am your girl.. :) But again, I ask........who the heck makes curtains that you can't put in the wash?? I come from a time either wash it or hand wash it or if you could afford it -- take it to cleaners,but you learned to stay away from those that needed dry cleaning...
My poor curtains look like they have been attacked by moth squad. Oh, well.. costly Ah-ha moment I can be such a ding bat, at times.. Goes to show..... Bobbie pay attention... !!!
Thanks------
When my oldest daughter had an apartment while finishing college, I ordered her some curtains and had to purchase 4 of them. They looked great had the panel on the back to help with the heat and cold.
Well, no one told me you could not put these in the wash.. Who the hell buys curtains that you can't wash? Me, obviously..
They looked a bit dusty and needed a good cleaning and what did smart butt do?? take them down and shove them in the wash and dryer. The wash went fine, just taking them out of the dryer was another story.. Do you remember as a child when you fell asleep with gum in your mouth and woke up with it matted? No, I guess that was another one of my moments.. :) Anyways, I get them out of the dryer and they are just all a big hot mess. If I could kick myself, I would...
I try to make myself look at the tags of things before I wash.. Note---- if you need something shrunk--- i am your girl.. :) But again, I ask........who the heck makes curtains that you can't put in the wash?? I come from a time either wash it or hand wash it or if you could afford it -- take it to cleaners,but you learned to stay away from those that needed dry cleaning...
My poor curtains look like they have been attacked by moth squad. Oh, well.. costly Ah-ha moment I can be such a ding bat, at times.. Goes to show..... Bobbie pay attention... !!!
Thanks------
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Things that go bump in the night
Do you know what goes bump in the night?
Have you ever heard a strange whistle while you were outside wandering around in the woods? Or a constant whistle while you are alone in the house? And mind you, it's an intelligent whistle; when you are brave enough to whistle back; it stops.
What about while driving in the dead of night down the Natchez Trace and you hear a cackle, long and loud.
What about shadows of strange figures? These figures that only have heads that pop up and you can't make out the face but you are sure to know that from the outline, you are glad you can't... What about a figure with glowing eyes, are you dreaming?
What about strange noises in your house? Blinds moving, shadows moving underneath the door? What about missing silverware in your house or things moving from one place to the next? Chairs rocking on their own?
Could all this be imagination? Our minds are powerful and when fear kicks in; could it be the mind is in overdrive making us think these things are there? Or could it be spirits, angels, demons or sinister little creatures as the DJinn or Gnomes running a muck creating havoc... ??
When you are alone again and hear or see these little things, stop and ask yourself if this is normal or is there really things that go bump in the night....
Thanks------
Have you ever heard a strange whistle while you were outside wandering around in the woods? Or a constant whistle while you are alone in the house? And mind you, it's an intelligent whistle; when you are brave enough to whistle back; it stops.
What about while driving in the dead of night down the Natchez Trace and you hear a cackle, long and loud.
What about shadows of strange figures? These figures that only have heads that pop up and you can't make out the face but you are sure to know that from the outline, you are glad you can't... What about a figure with glowing eyes, are you dreaming?
What about strange noises in your house? Blinds moving, shadows moving underneath the door? What about missing silverware in your house or things moving from one place to the next? Chairs rocking on their own?
Could all this be imagination? Our minds are powerful and when fear kicks in; could it be the mind is in overdrive making us think these things are there? Or could it be spirits, angels, demons or sinister little creatures as the DJinn or Gnomes running a muck creating havoc... ??
When you are alone again and hear or see these little things, stop and ask yourself if this is normal or is there really things that go bump in the night....
Thanks------
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Bobbie's Takes: Quick recipe for great lunch.
Bobbie's Takes: Quick recipe for great lunch.: This is a great recipe for a quick lunch. In a skillet on medium high, add tsp. olive oil. 1-2 cloves of crushed garlic (to taste) green...
Quick recipe for great lunch.
This is a great recipe for a quick lunch.
In a skillet on medium high, add tsp. olive oil.
1-2 cloves of crushed garlic (to taste)
green onions or chopped small onion
bell pepper
spinach leaves
any type of luncheon meat you like.
at times i use a teriyaki sauce or soy sauce and ginger sesame sauce is very good with this little sandwich
Cook until leaves become tender. Take off the eye, let sit for about 3 minutes.
Use any type of bread you like.. I love the wheat with sesame seeds.
Pile everything onto the bread with a side of pickle and you have a tasty lunch.
Thanks-----
In a skillet on medium high, add tsp. olive oil.
1-2 cloves of crushed garlic (to taste)
green onions or chopped small onion
bell pepper
spinach leaves
any type of luncheon meat you like.
at times i use a teriyaki sauce or soy sauce and ginger sesame sauce is very good with this little sandwich
Cook until leaves become tender. Take off the eye, let sit for about 3 minutes.
Use any type of bread you like.. I love the wheat with sesame seeds.
Pile everything onto the bread with a side of pickle and you have a tasty lunch.
Thanks-----
Monday, January 27, 2014
Bobbie's Takes: #violence and #drugs
Bobbie's Takes: #violence and #drugs: When I was a #victim's #advocate, I used to sit and listen to how someone could do some of the vile things to another person. Some of th...
#violence and #drugs
When I was a #victim's #advocate, I used to sit and listen to how someone could do some of the vile things to another person. Some of the things would make you sick and turn your blood boiling. How could someone do this? But whatever the abuse, and in my case, sexual assault or rape, it's not about sex it's about the control they think they have and sex is just a bonus for them and their twisted mind.
How many times have I been wakened by a phone call in the middle of the night to talk to a victim that can not seem to deal with what has happened. Some wanting to end their pain with pills, alcohol or even some other drastic measure as in killing themselves. That's hard to hear.
I have been in that ER talking to the victim, the police and the doctors and if needed,depending on the age of the person, DHS. You hear, why, why, why......... there is no why. You hear, it's my fault........no, generally not. I don't care if one walks in a room totally naked, does it give the green light for someone to touch you? NO, it does not. Or if someone comes up in your face and taunt you to hit them or they push you trying to get some type of response... or maybe, if wife, girlfriend or family member does something you don't like ... does that give the right to lay your hands on them? NO, it does not
It's about self control and when you put drinking, drugs and certain clicks in the mix; you can get a disaster. This is just crazy. And to top it off we have a #president stating that #marijuana is not a hazard as drinking.. well excuse the hell out of me......... YES, it is.
They are both drugs that can alter your state of mind and when you have young impressionable minds and all this bad behavior ....... You get young men and women having sex because it feels good, what the hell do you know what feels good? Or, this is a good one, nothing else to do and everyone else is doing it.... how about .......... Get a job, do chores, play games, have a party without all this crap in your system. How about standing up and having the initiative to say, no. Show you have a brain instead of stupidity. Yes, I know we all have a moment of stupidity of youth, but these times of accessibility, our youth have no direction and they are like the give me, cause i deserve it and most are all running a muck.
Girls you don't need to pull your pants down and have sex for a guy to like you or want you .. Guys you don't need to make it a game or "another notch". Drugs and alcohol is a dangerous game we play but as a young person and their growing minds, what is it actually doing? What in the hell are we teaching our kids? No wonder marriage is not the norm these days.
And to all the grown men and women out here. It's the same for this group to. Self control vs. impulse/violence. I have seen it and heard it all. The control and violence on another human being and it makes me sick and as much as I go into my mind and want to go after that person that did this; I have to keep my control and know that I am there for this person, talking with them. Helping them get through this and showing them they can come out of this awful experience and turn it into something they can deal with.. The goal is getting them out of the victim stage to one of being a survivor.
In weeks to come, I will break down each of these and voice my opinion. I would like to have feedback or comments about what I blog about, feel free.
Thanks----
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How many times have I been wakened by a phone call in the middle of the night to talk to a victim that can not seem to deal with what has happened. Some wanting to end their pain with pills, alcohol or even some other drastic measure as in killing themselves. That's hard to hear.
I have been in that ER talking to the victim, the police and the doctors and if needed,depending on the age of the person, DHS. You hear, why, why, why......... there is no why. You hear, it's my fault........no, generally not. I don't care if one walks in a room totally naked, does it give the green light for someone to touch you? NO, it does not. Or if someone comes up in your face and taunt you to hit them or they push you trying to get some type of response... or maybe, if wife, girlfriend or family member does something you don't like ... does that give the right to lay your hands on them? NO, it does not
It's about self control and when you put drinking, drugs and certain clicks in the mix; you can get a disaster. This is just crazy. And to top it off we have a #president stating that #marijuana is not a hazard as drinking.. well excuse the hell out of me......... YES, it is.
They are both drugs that can alter your state of mind and when you have young impressionable minds and all this bad behavior ....... You get young men and women having sex because it feels good, what the hell do you know what feels good? Or, this is a good one, nothing else to do and everyone else is doing it.... how about .......... Get a job, do chores, play games, have a party without all this crap in your system. How about standing up and having the initiative to say, no. Show you have a brain instead of stupidity. Yes, I know we all have a moment of stupidity of youth, but these times of accessibility, our youth have no direction and they are like the give me, cause i deserve it and most are all running a muck.
Girls you don't need to pull your pants down and have sex for a guy to like you or want you .. Guys you don't need to make it a game or "another notch". Drugs and alcohol is a dangerous game we play but as a young person and their growing minds, what is it actually doing? What in the hell are we teaching our kids? No wonder marriage is not the norm these days.
And to all the grown men and women out here. It's the same for this group to. Self control vs. impulse/violence. I have seen it and heard it all. The control and violence on another human being and it makes me sick and as much as I go into my mind and want to go after that person that did this; I have to keep my control and know that I am there for this person, talking with them. Helping them get through this and showing them they can come out of this awful experience and turn it into something they can deal with.. The goal is getting them out of the victim stage to one of being a survivor.
In weeks to come, I will break down each of these and voice my opinion. I would like to have feedback or comments about what I blog about, feel free.
Thanks----
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Friday, January 24, 2014
A little memory
As I lay here, my mind goes back to a time as a little girl watching tv with my mother. She would wake me up in the middle of the night while everyone else was sleeping to watch old movies with her. Mom and I would be there with eyes closed or hands over the face to keep from watching the vampire going for the throat or the werewolf tearing into someone. And it didn't matter if she had seen the movie before, each time she watched it, it would be something new to her.
She loved movies. I can't tell you how many times we have watched the old Dracula or Werewolf or Frankenstein or a Charlie Chan movie, countless Laurel and Hardy or old western movie (one of her favorite actors Audy Murphy, she watched just about everything he made). She said the movies were her escape or her journey or another emotion, that afterwards would give or bring her another outlook.
I close my eyes and I can see her now, sitting on the floor with me or we made a pallet to sit on and would be waiting for the movie to come on. Her eyes were so wide, you could almost see them sparkle and her hair would be draping around her face. She seemed almost child-like, so pretty.
They say;as you grow older you start remembering the days of old. Some memories good and some not so good. Well, with me, tonight, watching 'Murder, She Wrote' and about to watch 'Perry Mason' somehow pulled this little memory out. I would give anything to be able to share that special time with my mom again. We weren't able to have many of those moments but this was our time and even during the times when I complained about being wakened,they were still special.
This was just one of my special memories with a special person in my life. She may not be here physically for me to touch, but every time I close my eyes, I can see her and her child-like ways and I know that she is probably sitting here watching these great programs with me.
Thank you for letting me share this one private moment.
Thanks------
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Walk through the door
When one door closes another one opens. That is true in every case. There is usually a reason for the people that come into our lives or things that happen .. by chance or by design..
Whatever the circumstance of that one door closing trust the reason though it may be unclear at the moment, is/was necessary for growth or some lesson to learn. We always fear the unknown of walking through that next door or chapter in our lives.but once we go through, we often find ourselves in a much better place. It could be a new job, new friend, new house or new love. Each of us, right now, have just closed a door in our lives and most of us already know the next door/chapter to walk to and others of us are still seeking that next door. Don't look back .........backwards was a learning phase and only moving forward can we grow and teach.
All of our journey's we take can lead us to the path of being much happier and wiser and a life of no regrets... that is if we choose it... Embrace that new door and walk through without fear, you might be surprised at what you find.
Thanks------
Whatever the circumstance of that one door closing trust the reason though it may be unclear at the moment, is/was necessary for growth or some lesson to learn. We always fear the unknown of walking through that next door or chapter in our lives.but once we go through, we often find ourselves in a much better place. It could be a new job, new friend, new house or new love. Each of us, right now, have just closed a door in our lives and most of us already know the next door/chapter to walk to and others of us are still seeking that next door. Don't look back .........backwards was a learning phase and only moving forward can we grow and teach.
All of our journey's we take can lead us to the path of being much happier and wiser and a life of no regrets... that is if we choose it... Embrace that new door and walk through without fear, you might be surprised at what you find.
Thanks------
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Passion(ate) views..
Passion (from the Latin verb patī meaning to suffer) is a term applied to a very strong feeling about a person or thing. Passion is an intense emotion compelling, enthusiasm, or desire for anything.
The term is also often applied to a lively or eager interest in or admiration for a proposal, cause, or activity or love – to a feeling of unusual excitement, enthusiasm or compelling emotion, a positive affinity or love, towards a subject. It is particularly used in the context of romance or sexual desire though it generally implies a deeper or more encompassing emotion than that implied by the term lust.
What are you passionate about or who?
I am passionate about lots of things. I tell you when I get on the things that drive my passion...... I am one force to reckon with whether it be in a good way or not so good way.
I am passionate about singing, not that I can carry a tune, at this point, but love how some songs just take me on a path to some of my emotions. How some of the words can just take you to a tear or a smile. I am passionate about my modeling ......... love, love that all the hard work in the past has given me confidence and knowing that I am only 5'2... when I get on that runway.....I am 6' tall.. It's given me grace and shown me that I can. Now to say that none of you know who I am or seen me on anything, but watch out.....you will (gonna have to be some changes or me making some changes but watch out) . I am passionate about some movies and books.... those that can take me on a journey. I have a great deal of passion on my faith and don't get me started on my political views (usually gets me into trouble). The passion I have for my family, we may argue and not talk for days, but let someone go after one of them... I have passion for love.. you know that kind of love you have so deep inside that the mere thought of the person brings a smile and the sun shines a little brighter, words are a bit sweeter and you can't get enough of them. I am passionate about my work in massage therapy. I love how what I do makes a difference to another person. I am passionate about my causes such as animal abuse or abuse of another human being.
This year, I intend to get more involved with many of these and finally face my fears and have my voice.
Whatever your passion, show it with conviction but with class and grace.
Thanks-----
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Procedure---ouch
This is going to be a short but sweet blog today..
In bed with pain from a nasty procedure, yesterday.
Can anyone say.. OUCH!!!
Not a good day for me. These meds can start kicking in at any time now.. :)
The dentist says I will be sore for a few days and should be better by weeks end.. oh really?? and then the repair to my crown begins.......... uh.. noooooo until this pain goes away, he ain't touching my tooth...
Well, the pain is a necessary evil of my procedure and I really should not complain........ There are many out in this world that would like to get this procedure but can't ....... I am grateful for what I have and that I have the freedom(at the moment) to have had this done.
But again, ouch!!!
Thanks---
In bed with pain from a nasty procedure, yesterday.
Can anyone say.. OUCH!!!
Not a good day for me. These meds can start kicking in at any time now.. :)
The dentist says I will be sore for a few days and should be better by weeks end.. oh really?? and then the repair to my crown begins.......... uh.. noooooo until this pain goes away, he ain't touching my tooth...
Well, the pain is a necessary evil of my procedure and I really should not complain........ There are many out in this world that would like to get this procedure but can't ....... I am grateful for what I have and that I have the freedom(at the moment) to have had this done.
But again, ouch!!!
Thanks---
Monday, January 20, 2014
Yes, it can
I say, yes it can! When you find that someone that makes you feel as if you are the only one and with every conversation, makes you want more and more.. To see the smile, hear the voice......... longing for them when they are not around.
A love affair doesn't necessarily mean a sexual affair. It's much deeper than that. Two souls finding one another in some of the most incredible and yet not the norm ways but yet they do.. They grow and can't seem to stay away.....every moment they are away from the conversation of you...... they hurt.... their words help bring you back to your senses.... at at times, in anger, their words can drive you to distraction... but yet, that's okay...... You are their's and they are your's.....
A love that can stand the test of time.
Thanks------
Friday, January 17, 2014
Redemption/Soul searching?
Have you ever looked back over your life and wished you could had done things differently? Some things we can't because of time passing but others we can make right.
Over the years, how I treated someone in my past has been nagging at me down in my stomach. This person was and is a great friend.. He stood by me through thick and thin. He and his friends were the best.. I called them "my guys". This guy deeply cared for me but being YDS (young-dumb-stupid) phase and my attitude; I ignored and was not quite nice many times, but then he stayed around. We met at a grocery store at 18 and then started hanging out and he became my dancing partner at Thunder Birds.... every Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday nights. Those days were one of the best of my young life.
Many times, when things have not gone my way or a relationship didn't work out, I think maybe this is my punishment for treating he and others as if they were only there for me, especially this one. I have thought about him wandering how he was and how things have been since the night his/our friends came in and said "he's getting married, tomorrow". He cares for you but look at what you have done to him, can he trust in you? he deserves someone that will care for him too. That knocked me down a peg or two... or three.. but our friends were right, I was not wanting to be tied down, wanted to finish school and trying to rear my daughter properly. Granted I have not finished my bachelors degree , YET..
I can break off and tell a story about one of these guys I was not so nice to..... I was huge and pregnant and shopping with my mother-in-law with my oldest daughter in our hometown , Tupelo. I was waiting in line of the Christmas season when someone came in and pecked me on the shoulder and asked if I were Bobbie.. yes.. then he commenced to say who he was and how awful I was to him by my actions. I was jaw dropping stunned... I told him I was sorry and that is , quite often, how it was for me back in my party -youth days and that it was a long time ago........ He still walked away hurt and mad... It was an eye-opener.
Back to my dear old friend... Now bring forward 25 years...... I was sitting in my living room and now with the device of a computer, I looked him up...... after picking up and putting down the phone ... over fear of what he would say or do.... I said to myself...... "come on, girl......it's just a conversation" the worst can happen ..... phone hangs up......then you will know. I called, his wife answers and I tell her that I am an old friend of his and if he were home, can I speak with him....... she said just a moment, he was in the other room. He did -to my surprise- answer. after a few minutes of catching up on our lives and children.... I told him I had been thinking about him alot over the years and how truly sorry, I am for how I treated him. "you were there for me when I thought no one would be and you were the best guy and friend, I could have". I told him that I didn't know if this was for redemption for me or just soul searching but I couldn't go another day without telling him how sorry I was....He was a great guy. He said he had forgiven me years ago and thought of me over the years as I had him.. We ended our conversation with we all need to get together for lunch sometime.. all the gang... We still haven't but to know that option is there makes a smile.
Be careful how you treat those around you especially those that care for you or you for them. One day they might come up to you as this one did with me and tell you how you affected them with what you had done.
It's an eye opener and starts you thinking.
Thanks-----
Over the years, how I treated someone in my past has been nagging at me down in my stomach. This person was and is a great friend.. He stood by me through thick and thin. He and his friends were the best.. I called them "my guys". This guy deeply cared for me but being YDS (young-dumb-stupid) phase and my attitude; I ignored and was not quite nice many times, but then he stayed around. We met at a grocery store at 18 and then started hanging out and he became my dancing partner at Thunder Birds.... every Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday nights. Those days were one of the best of my young life.
Many times, when things have not gone my way or a relationship didn't work out, I think maybe this is my punishment for treating he and others as if they were only there for me, especially this one. I have thought about him wandering how he was and how things have been since the night his/our friends came in and said "he's getting married, tomorrow". He cares for you but look at what you have done to him, can he trust in you? he deserves someone that will care for him too. That knocked me down a peg or two... or three.. but our friends were right, I was not wanting to be tied down, wanted to finish school and trying to rear my daughter properly. Granted I have not finished my bachelors degree , YET..
I can break off and tell a story about one of these guys I was not so nice to..... I was huge and pregnant and shopping with my mother-in-law with my oldest daughter in our hometown , Tupelo. I was waiting in line of the Christmas season when someone came in and pecked me on the shoulder and asked if I were Bobbie.. yes.. then he commenced to say who he was and how awful I was to him by my actions. I was jaw dropping stunned... I told him I was sorry and that is , quite often, how it was for me back in my party -youth days and that it was a long time ago........ He still walked away hurt and mad... It was an eye-opener.
Back to my dear old friend... Now bring forward 25 years...... I was sitting in my living room and now with the device of a computer, I looked him up...... after picking up and putting down the phone ... over fear of what he would say or do.... I said to myself...... "come on, girl......it's just a conversation" the worst can happen ..... phone hangs up......then you will know. I called, his wife answers and I tell her that I am an old friend of his and if he were home, can I speak with him....... she said just a moment, he was in the other room. He did -to my surprise- answer. after a few minutes of catching up on our lives and children.... I told him I had been thinking about him alot over the years and how truly sorry, I am for how I treated him. "you were there for me when I thought no one would be and you were the best guy and friend, I could have". I told him that I didn't know if this was for redemption for me or just soul searching but I couldn't go another day without telling him how sorry I was....He was a great guy. He said he had forgiven me years ago and thought of me over the years as I had him.. We ended our conversation with we all need to get together for lunch sometime.. all the gang... We still haven't but to know that option is there makes a smile.
Be careful how you treat those around you especially those that care for you or you for them. One day they might come up to you as this one did with me and tell you how you affected them with what you had done.
It's an eye opener and starts you thinking.
Thanks-----
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Resolutions
You know all those New Year resolutions that you made and said to yourself this year, I'm gonna keep them? Yeah, right.. Great intentions to start out a new year with new ideas and new prospects and maybe new people or job in and around your world.
Not to say that some you may keep and make happen but others will fall to the wayside as they usually do... especially the get in shape, lose a bit of weight.. I gave up that one year's ago.. Not that I don't try to get back into my full 99 pound form........ so I am 10 lbs. more..... not too bad..... right? right??
I feel that if we try to at least live our lives in a way that it makes us a better person inside and out, let the resolutions fall as they may. I mean they are fun to make to see if you will or how many you will keep but truly how many of us really do all the things we "resolute" to do during the new year?
I say, live your life, healthy and go for a little more wealthy (whether that be a few more dollars or thousands of dollars, whichever makes you happy) and be a whole lot wiser and each of us will be just fine.
Live for today.......
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Not to say that some you may keep and make happen but others will fall to the wayside as they usually do... especially the get in shape, lose a bit of weight.. I gave up that one year's ago.. Not that I don't try to get back into my full 99 pound form........ so I am 10 lbs. more..... not too bad..... right? right??
I feel that if we try to at least live our lives in a way that it makes us a better person inside and out, let the resolutions fall as they may. I mean they are fun to make to see if you will or how many you will keep but truly how many of us really do all the things we "resolute" to do during the new year?
I say, live your life, healthy and go for a little more wealthy (whether that be a few more dollars or thousands of dollars, whichever makes you happy) and be a whole lot wiser and each of us will be just fine.
Live for today.......
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Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Being late.
Do you feel like the rabbit from Alice in Wonderland? Seems you can't ever be on time for anything.
Most of us feel this way, even I do at times. I don't think it has anything do with the character of the person
but it is just how they are. You always know which of your friends or colleagues that's always late, you can set your watch by them.
I have a sister, (nameless), Becky (clearing throat), you could give her 6 hours to get ready, back in the day, and she still would be late. I had a friend or a few friends the same way. Take them forever to get dressed and still late for the occasion. Me, I am early or on time. I can't stand arriving somewhere late. It makes me feel unprepared and unprofessional. But that is just me, who I am.
I understand the stuck in traffic or my child is sick or car has a flat or will not start and I have had this one many times, my baby just spit up on me... but again, I was on time. I had been prepared to when that could happen and I had a change of clothes on ready, if it were bad enough or a nice little wet one with some type of cleaner that would mask the job. That's just me...
Things I do when I want to make sure I am on time....... set my clock about 30(more) minutes ahead.. Get my coffee, shower and dressed......out the door, I go. Last week, I had a dental check up and I got up did all my normal day things and started cleaning. I looked at my clock and said to myself, I have about an hour before I need to be there.... what did I do? start cleaning around in the kitchen.. next thing, I looked down at my watch and saw that it was now 8:28 and I had to be at the dentist by 9am. I did some fast stepping, I made it to the dentist about 10 minutes before 9. No, I did not speed and still made it on time.
I am not sure what can help you with 'lateness'; if you are the one that is always perpetually late. You can try the clock thing, but if you happen to be like one of my daughters', she feels it gives her more time to have time and still usually rushes out that door.
As I said before, I don't think this is or it's for me, a character flaw..... it's just how the person is....Their internal clocks are just wound differently.. We love you nonetheless.
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Monday, January 13, 2014
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Saying goodbye......
To finally say goodbye to someone.....is the hardest thing to do. One moment they are here the next they are gone. No more to see or touch or hear.
My heart is still very heavy but realizing this is the end. Heart breaks, tears fall and the mind goes into many directions as so the emotions. I have not wanted to say goodbye because I could not find it real and as long as I kept telling myself he's not gone, he wasn't gone. But, I am only hurting myself , I'm selfish, wanting him back. But I know he's no longer in pain or anguish over what to do.
You see, he was so unhappy with where his life was and that he felt he was only a shell of a man with his illness. He was a good man and I for one miss him greatly.
Rest in peace Bill Browning, I know that sweet face has no frowns now. You are as you should be but I wish it could have been here on Earth. Walk those streets of gold, my friend. And if I listen closely, I bet I
will hear the roar of a motorcycle engine. You can rest easy that you have no choices to make.
As I sit here with tears and hard to say goodbye... You will always have a special place in my heart and my memories of you are full. I just wish it could have been more and more time.
Thank you for so much you gave me and my life is ever changed because of knowing you. One day my sweet.. One day.......You are gone but never will be forgotten.
Thanks------
My heart is still very heavy but realizing this is the end. Heart breaks, tears fall and the mind goes into many directions as so the emotions. I have not wanted to say goodbye because I could not find it real and as long as I kept telling myself he's not gone, he wasn't gone. But, I am only hurting myself , I'm selfish, wanting him back. But I know he's no longer in pain or anguish over what to do.
You see, he was so unhappy with where his life was and that he felt he was only a shell of a man with his illness. He was a good man and I for one miss him greatly.
Rest in peace Bill Browning, I know that sweet face has no frowns now. You are as you should be but I wish it could have been here on Earth. Walk those streets of gold, my friend. And if I listen closely, I bet I
will hear the roar of a motorcycle engine. You can rest easy that you have no choices to make.
As I sit here with tears and hard to say goodbye... You will always have a special place in my heart and my memories of you are full. I just wish it could have been more and more time.
Thank you for so much you gave me and my life is ever changed because of knowing you. One day my sweet.. One day.......You are gone but never will be forgotten.
Thanks------
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
When will the nightmare be over?
Do you ever wish that when something so terrible happens , totally unexpected and heart breaking...... you would open your eyes, to find that it was only a dream? I do, everyday for the past few weeks... Trying to come up with answers that aren't there. Making sense of the non sensible Things that shouldn't be are and those that should be aren't.
I try to take my mind off this, but I find it drifting back. Denial? very could be and maybe. Heart breaking? absolutely. Make sense? none at all. And yet, I go over and over in my mind, why? how?
I keep thinking I am going to wake up from this awful nightmare and things be the way they are suppose to be....
Why do we put ourselves through this? is it because denial makes it not real? or is it just our minds coping the only way it knows how? But what of the unanswered questions? Until I get my answers, I am afraid I will never have my peace of mind. I have no one to talk to with this, I keep it to myself.... my own private hell. No one understands.......... I am beginning to become consumed and this isn't good for my health and my girls. I will find my way and being angry at why and how and no answers will work itself through some how. I keep my faith and believe that with all that has happened, I keep my heart and the goodness inside from all the nonsense
So, I ride this nightmare out and hope that one day, I find the dream inside.
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I try to take my mind off this, but I find it drifting back. Denial? very could be and maybe. Heart breaking? absolutely. Make sense? none at all. And yet, I go over and over in my mind, why? how?
I keep thinking I am going to wake up from this awful nightmare and things be the way they are suppose to be....
Why do we put ourselves through this? is it because denial makes it not real? or is it just our minds coping the only way it knows how? But what of the unanswered questions? Until I get my answers, I am afraid I will never have my peace of mind. I have no one to talk to with this, I keep it to myself.... my own private hell. No one understands.......... I am beginning to become consumed and this isn't good for my health and my girls. I will find my way and being angry at why and how and no answers will work itself through some how. I keep my faith and believe that with all that has happened, I keep my heart and the goodness inside from all the nonsense
So, I ride this nightmare out and hope that one day, I find the dream inside.
Thanks----
Monday, January 6, 2014
Fear
What is fear? according to wikipedia--- Fear is an emotion induced by a perceived threat which causes entities to quickly pull far away from it and usually hide. It is a basic survival mechanism occurring in response to a specific stimulus which is perceived as a risk of significant loss of health, wealth, status, power, security or of anything held valuable. In short, fear is a motivating force arising from the ability to recognize danger leading to an urge to confront it or flee from it (also known as the fight-or-flight response) but in extreme cases of fear (horror and terror) a freeze or paralysis response is possible.
Why fear you ask? Fear keeps us or most of us, at times, from doing or feeling what we feel is right or what we must. We think of the repercussions that will come and back down, most of the time. But why? Can we not speak what we feel about politics, relationships, religion, school, color and what ever it may be? If we mean what we say without the intentions of hate, why not? Our world is getting to where we can't speak out because of offending someone.... i was told at an early age.. put your big girl panties on and deal with it.. not everyone is going to say or do what you like.... they have an opinion and they can share it as long it's not doing any harm to you or anyone else.
I have been fearful most of my life with one thing or another. And just recently, allowing fear to keep me from doing something that my heart wanted me to do...... Sad that I will never have that chance, now. Fear kept me from my acting so many years ago and this I can try and rectify, I am trying to get back into something that I love doing and my modeling, I never let my height keep me from the passion I had for this profession..... just my fear. Fear has kept me from so much in my life as well as many of you..... why do we succumb to this feeling?
If our forefathers had succumbed to the fear that was inside.... We would not be this great Nation we are today. But, if we don't stand up for this great Nation, right now because we are afraid of being called bullies, racists or whatever it may be keeping us from defending this Nation's Constitution, we are lost.. Our Country and it's solid Constitution and Faith in God....should never , ever be apologized for .. We are a proud nation and others from countries come here because we are free.. with political and religious views.. they are here to live by our constitution and views .. they are free to practice theirs but not push theirs on us... I can't go to their countries and ask them to speak English or I am a southern Baptist.. I want you to be ..... doesn't work that way, I or anyone else would be thrown out... We respect other countries and how they are run and abide the rules when we are there...... Again, Fear......is keeping us from being our Great Nation.......... WHY??
I can't allow fear to rule my world any longer.. I have lost too much already... I abide the law, rules and I have a voice that needs to be spoken... As do you. Fear keeps us down and I don't choose to be down any longer.. Watch out world.. Hear my voice..
Thanks.......
Why fear you ask? Fear keeps us or most of us, at times, from doing or feeling what we feel is right or what we must. We think of the repercussions that will come and back down, most of the time. But why? Can we not speak what we feel about politics, relationships, religion, school, color and what ever it may be? If we mean what we say without the intentions of hate, why not? Our world is getting to where we can't speak out because of offending someone.... i was told at an early age.. put your big girl panties on and deal with it.. not everyone is going to say or do what you like.... they have an opinion and they can share it as long it's not doing any harm to you or anyone else.
I have been fearful most of my life with one thing or another. And just recently, allowing fear to keep me from doing something that my heart wanted me to do...... Sad that I will never have that chance, now. Fear kept me from my acting so many years ago and this I can try and rectify, I am trying to get back into something that I love doing and my modeling, I never let my height keep me from the passion I had for this profession..... just my fear. Fear has kept me from so much in my life as well as many of you..... why do we succumb to this feeling?
If our forefathers had succumbed to the fear that was inside.... We would not be this great Nation we are today. But, if we don't stand up for this great Nation, right now because we are afraid of being called bullies, racists or whatever it may be keeping us from defending this Nation's Constitution, we are lost.. Our Country and it's solid Constitution and Faith in God....should never , ever be apologized for .. We are a proud nation and others from countries come here because we are free.. with political and religious views.. they are here to live by our constitution and views .. they are free to practice theirs but not push theirs on us... I can't go to their countries and ask them to speak English or I am a southern Baptist.. I want you to be ..... doesn't work that way, I or anyone else would be thrown out... We respect other countries and how they are run and abide the rules when we are there...... Again, Fear......is keeping us from being our Great Nation.......... WHY??
I can't allow fear to rule my world any longer.. I have lost too much already... I abide the law, rules and I have a voice that needs to be spoken... As do you. Fear keeps us down and I don't choose to be down any longer.. Watch out world.. Hear my voice..
Thanks.......
Friday, January 3, 2014
On the weather..
This weather is just crazy.. Global warming... yeah.. who fell for that one?? Not me... It was just one man and his team making a buck off the backs of the citizens..
It's colder than a well diggers behind outside and look overseas at their weather .. strong storms, wild wind and snow in some areas that hasn't received it in almost 70 years. Global warming come on..
Our planet goes and comes in phases as it rotates .. how it is and will be until the end. We have a cooling off period and some heating periods.. but, sorry, I have never believed in the hype of ohhh.. you have to go green to save our planet.. Gore uses more damn electricity than anyone does .. He's a freaking jerk.. but made lots of money being that jerk.
When I was in Ireland it was so dang cold, could hardly stand it and the Irish said it is the worst cold bout they have had in years, Spring was a couple of months behind. They even scoffed at this Global warming crap fed and shoved down our throats.
I don't know about you, but I think I may have to get a home in the Caribbean and stay during winter and come back to the deep south in spring. :)
Well, this is my take on all this "global" crap..
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It's colder than a well diggers behind outside and look overseas at their weather .. strong storms, wild wind and snow in some areas that hasn't received it in almost 70 years. Global warming come on..
Our planet goes and comes in phases as it rotates .. how it is and will be until the end. We have a cooling off period and some heating periods.. but, sorry, I have never believed in the hype of ohhh.. you have to go green to save our planet.. Gore uses more damn electricity than anyone does .. He's a freaking jerk.. but made lots of money being that jerk.
When I was in Ireland it was so dang cold, could hardly stand it and the Irish said it is the worst cold bout they have had in years, Spring was a couple of months behind. They even scoffed at this Global warming crap fed and shoved down our throats.
I don't know about you, but I think I may have to get a home in the Caribbean and stay during winter and come back to the deep south in spring. :)
Well, this is my take on all this "global" crap..
Thanks------
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Simply said..
Wishing each of you a Happy New Year... May this new year bring you all that you desire.. Love and Peace..
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