A Tribute to a Special Man--- Bill

I miss you and will miss you every day. These past 14 years knowing you have been the best of my life.  Not always were they the best of times, but they were good nonetheless. 
You made me laugh and man you made me cry... a lot.. but you seemed to always be there when it counted. You made me see myself the way no one could. You never let me get away with anything and always told me to behave.
. I will always remember your voice and how you made me smile by saying isn't this age of technology wonderful. I thank you for the pictures you would send me to have me apart of your world. I cherish each conversation and will hold on to them in my heart.
When you told me you were ill.. I researched for days to find something to help you. We talked seems for hours me not wanting to let you go. I knew time was short but God I didn't know this short of time. We talked only hours before and your words left, I will never forget.. Time was never to be in the cards and that is the saddest part of all.. You were getting ready for a change and wanted to be happy for the time you had left.. You didn't want those responsibilities that were holding you down, you said you wanted a new life and was looking into how... but time grew to short... did you know the last time you talked to me it would be the last?  It isn't fair.. How can this be? Everyone wanted a piece of you but didn't see you.. Pushing and pushing and I was part of that too.. I pushed you to be you and to finally live the way you wanted to choose... did I push too much as well? Did I do enough? I know you wanted to die and prayed for it daily, this illness had taken it's toll and made you feel you were only a shell.. You were much more than that as I kept telling you.
These days without hearing from you have been the worst for me.. I know your family is dying too without you.. They all have my prayers.
I miss you still and can't believe you are gone. I keep waiting for a message that this is only a dream.  But each day, comes none and I begin to sink to know that you will never be here ...i keep praying for one more day, just one more conversation, just one more of anything, yet it is not to be.  The tears they fall so rapidly and it's hard to even breathe... cause you, my sweet, are not here to catch me whenever I should fall.  
You are my Angel now as you always said I was a gift from God to you... God please show this wonderful man peace now...he deserves no less.. Never think you weren't  loved because my friend you were loved by everyone that knew you.
Your time was cut short and I pray you have your peace.You are walking in Heaven now and I am so glad you and I talked about the Lord, you said you were a non-believer, I asked you to find your faith.   So, Rest In Peace, my sweet Bill B..I miss you so.. 


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That annoying feeling....

You know when you have that feeling in the pit of your stomach that something isn't right?  You try to dismiss it as nothing but it will not let up.  What do you do? Do you dismiss or do you look into this annoying feeling?
Me, I am analytical. I go down every possible avenue until I find the truth. I am a bull dog with my teeth tightly clinched on someone's behind until either, i've exhausted means of truth or i find the answers. 
Well right now, I have an annoying feeling in the pit of my stomach and it's telling me something isn't right. And no amount of me thinking it's just me, helps. My thoughts are racing  of things that were said to things that I know. Were the things that were said the truth? or were the things that I have known.... true?  Here lies my problem. Do I trust the annoying pit in my stomach and do whatever it takes  for the answers I seek (and maybe these questions end up the same answers that were annoying) or do I just accept the answers and move on? 
I know, it makes life easier if we just try to accept what annoys us, but I am not made that way.. I have to trust in my gut and here I go ..... Maybe I am wishing what I seek will calm my heart instead of the hurt I feel right now...We will see..    My wish and prayers could be answered if this annoying, gut wrenching feeling were true. 
What do you do when you find this feeling annoying your stomach...........   seek or ignore?

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My rant on Healthcare.

As I watch the news and hear about HCare. I want to scream.. Why screw up what we had? yes, it wasn't perfect and yes, it needed fixing... badly.. but to destroy what good people that were doing the right thing that could afford it...  having insurance... they go and mess it up... yes, it's a noble thing to want everyone to have insurance.......but listen.. the math doesn't work and i'm not even good at math.  

Why not get government out of health care and allow our system to work... government helps government not the people that support it.  Even MCare is about to go bust because the jackrabbits stole our money for other projects and all we have in there are IOU's, let me tell you, I've paid my dues for that money to be there and sadly it will not be .. for me or for many others. MCaid is a whole other problem.. why not make the guys that get these girls pregnant get a job and help pay for the insurance if they want any type of assistance??  Hey just suggestions, my opinions. 

Let's allow all us to shop across country for insurance, that would make the "greedy" insurance companies competitive and help cost... tort reform is a biggy... have health  savings account would be great. 

Let's face it, not everyone is going to have insurance whether it be from not affording it or just don't want it. But forcing someone to take something they don't want and can't afford for the purpose of equal and fair........is not how our/this country works.  Not how our Constitution works.....  

So scrap this crap and do it right for the people not the government. 

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Jamey Johnson - Lead Me Home (Full Version) ( I miss you Bill)

My design

I love fashion. I started college with a major in fashion. I wanted to have my own line out in the stores one day, but I have just one little draw back... Can't draw a lick with a stick.   
Don't get me wrong, I have had moments where my drawings were on a school project, but face it, if I draw a stick man you couldn't tell what it is.   
One of my many dreams was to have my own design shop for wedding dresses, my own designs. How wonderful that would have been.  I am the romantic, classic style type. In my attic, I have a classic 1950 style dress with a veil , beautiful. I was going to get married in that dress but unfortunately, it had too many defects to repair before my big day.  
And in my closet, I have a dress that I designed for a Christmas Party, with the help of someone with the artistic ability that could see my vision. It is lovely, not another dress like it , the only one of it's kind.  I will be posting the picture for all of you to see.. Georgette material over satin, v-shaped back all the way down to the low back above hips and a sash draped to hide the cut out back...
I may get back into this little side passion but I need someone to draw.. :)   
Stay tuned for the picture, once I load Facebook on my IPhone.  I know you will love it as much as I do.  


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Give of yourself, it could save a friend..

When people are hurting or unhappy, why can we not, (me included) take time out and sit down to let them talk or cry or whatever they need to do.

 I have(had) a friend that was so unhappy with his life and wanted to make a change but didn't know because of his illness of how to do this without backlash. He wanted to be free of all the responsibilities that were at his feet.  He loved his family and yet longed for another life.

Pressures from his family and company and I am not innocent in this either.. I pushed for him to make these changes before he became to ill. All he wanted was to find happiness, he craved happiness. 

It's so sad how much he was suffering and most was ignored, but I tried , but didn't do enough to save him.  He deserved to have the life he wanted without fear, repercussions and hate.  With all his sadness, he begged for death ... question ... did anyone else that knew him, hear his cries, did you care?  This man was a good man, a good friend and I know I will miss him .. our talks we shared were not always easy and not always pleasant but they needed to be said and shared, it helped. I honestly do not think that anyone had ever let him just be him and ask him instead of ask of him. I miss those times of him popping in just to say hello. I miss the Merry Christmas or the times he would come on and recite his speech before his company's party or him getting ready for tax season, touchy subject... All these times and years were special, are special to my memory and my heart. But, did those that were there know or care enough to help??

I can go on and on about this but it's too late for my sweet, wonderful friend.. He's gone and now my life is forever changed.. no more asking how the day is going. or are you okay... or i enjoy our talks or ..we will talk later.. that later will never come again. 
 
So, let us not ignore those in pain and hurting deeply, give one moment of your time and listen.... listen to them. You never know if that could be all they need. 

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Prayer for those who Mourn --- this season.

Wishing each of you a Merry Christmas.  I will post again on the 26th.
 Taking time out to spend time with my daughters and family.  
Christmas is a time for giving, (it should be throughout the year), not just the gifts but give of yourself.It is also the time of rejoicing our Savior's birth, the best gift of all, this world was ever given
But, tonight, I want to talk about time with our loved ones and friends and how that is a gift that we most often take for granted.
 Time is short and as I watch the news and see the postings of so much loss.. It's sad. Right now, I am grieving for the loss of someone very special to me.. I have been sitting around thinking back of all the talks we have shared and I find myself in uncontrollable tears and how much I miss him,but I am not the only one grieving.There is a family that has lost the most precious part of their lives and my prayers and thoughts are with them, most of all. As my thoughts and prayers go to everyone suffering the loss this season.   As the pain is great at the moment, we can never forget that we never walk this path alone. The Lord carries our deepest burdens and believing in him we shall never parish.

 Prayers for Those Who Mourn

 Bless those that Mourn,eternal God
 With the comfort of your Love 
 That they may  face each new day with hope
 And the certainty that nothing can destroy
 the good that has been given.  May their
 memories become joyful, their days enriched
 with friendship,and their lives encircled 
 by your Love.

 Amen
(1991 Vienna Cobb Anderson, Adapted from "Prayers of Our Hearts"

http://www.beliefnet.com/Faiths/Faith-Tools/Meditation/2005/04/Prayers-For-Coping-With-Loss.aspx

Merry Christmas!!!


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Procrastination

The day before Christmas Eve....... Dang it. Still not finished with my shopping. Love procrastination... Every year, I say I am going to start early and every year, I am last minute shopping. Every year, I say that I am going to stay out of the shops and shop online and every year, I am pushing and shoving, standing in long lines. 
Granted with the death of that special person, I have not wanted to get out of bed much less shopping but I get up and I get myself together and go. Facing the day. 
Well a few more gifts down and a few more to buy and then I am done. Well, we will see if little miss procrastinator is not out shopping on Christmas Eve??   Will she or will she not??  Tune in.. 
All of my girls will be home, Sami came in yesterday, Cate and Lauren will be in from Huntsville tonight and then, I can hug on them and tell them how much I love them. I miss the times when they were younger but now, we can and are growing not only as mother-daughters', but as friends as well.  
Okay, okay.. I have the shower and coffee yelling at me to get off my duff and get a move on ... Shopping awaits... Have a great day, everyone. Be safe. 

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My Lesson Today...

Go to sleep with everything fine except for what you bring into your mind and put yourself through to waking up and finding the worst new imaginable. 

I learned one of my life's lessons today.. The hard way.  

Keep those special to you as close as you can. Never let a day go by that you tell them what they mean to you. For one day the next day you thought was never to be. 

I jumped to conclusions and worked myself up to find that a friend dear to me was no longer here.   There is a family mourning the loss of a father, husband, grandfather and brother. No more birthdays, no more Christmas', no more smiles or conversations to have. Only memories that will forever be, at times, happy, others--sad, but always fond memories of that special soul no longer to hold. 

I took my licking today, deservedly so, I will miss my friend more than anyone could know.. I will look back at the times shared and I will see his smile and hear his voice and that helps to keep this friend close.. 

His family has a tough road ahead but together through love and support, they will find a way.   

I send prayers for their strength to get them through and to my friend in Heaven... You will be missed and you are loved everyday.  

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Christmas

 In this season of Christmas, I would like to wish each and every one of you a very Merry Christmas.
I love Christmas, it is my favorite holiday not because of all the gifts but of what this season means, means to me. The trees go up with all the whistles and bows and the lights, they are beautiful to watch. The smell of holiday cooking is the best, it makes eating much more enjoyable. The music at this time of year puts a twinkle in your eye and a jolliness in your soul. 
What other time of year can you start out with Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer and Jingle Bells and end with Silent Night and O'Little Town of Bethlehem? What other time of year do you sit around the tree and tell the story of Baby Jesus' birth and Twas the Night Before Christmas. 
I remember as a small child when we were glued to the tv, the announcer would say, Santa has been spotted over such and such and he's on his way. So all you little girls and boys need to be sleeping so that he can come to your house. We would hear the jingle of his sleigh as the announcer would say. All of the children would get up and peer out the window to see if we could get a glimpse of that jolly ole fella... to our dismay.. not a single reindeer in sight.
Christmas is a time for us to remember the birth of our Lord. The story of his birth, always brings me to tears.. It is also found in the song The Little Drummer Boy.. To follow that shining star and to come to a child born in a manger. And who can say it better than the song Noel..... Born is the King of Israel.
 Christmas is family and friends, eating till you pop, singing till you drop. Having the best time of the year.. and we can never forget that dreaded fruit cake that comes back every year and that great ole ale we call egg nog(spiked if you please)...
So I shall close with another great song... Have yourself a Merry little Christmas.. 

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Love

My take on Love is..... Love with everything you have. Give of yourself to that one deserving. Show them every day how much they mean to you- for one day, you may not have the chance. 
Most think that you have to spend lots of money for this thing called "Love".. Flash news.. you don't. It doesn't take a lot of money to show someone you love them.  Hide little notes in their pockets or briefcases or a card in the seat of the car. Go for a walk and even in the rain that walk is special. A nice day in the park or even just a phone call during the day, a smile across a crowded room... All of these we can do without going to the bank.
Don't get me wrong, getting something nice once in a while is nice and very special but we don't need that everyday.. that is superficial and Love is a deeper meaning of two people sharing something incredible that only you can have. 
I would rather spend one of these moments to memory than any vacation or any jewelry he could give me.  Time is so precious and the memories grow short. Take time to love with everything you have/are and never let them go. 

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The Nellie Gesture.. :)

Oh, you gotta love the Holidays.....  You know the malls filled with people pushing and shoving trying to get that one gift or the food court when you take a break from the masses; the food court line is, well all of you know, unbelievable. Do you find yourself, changing lines for the food to find it is not much better. (I do this all the time, yeah, should have my head examined.) Usually by the time I make it up to the one I picked, guess what? After watching and smelling all that food coming by, I usually change my mind, again.... 
And oh my lord, the traffic. The traffic is the worst. Bumper to bumper, horn on horn and the faces of some are just to funny to ignore. Me, don't don't cut me off. Come on. Why on earth cause this much ruckus on the streets when you can go to the privacy of your home and purchase online? Makes no sense. Cutting me off will get you Nellie and her gestures and those that knew my Grandmother Nellie knows exactly what I am talking about. :)  
One day, I remember we were pulling out of Big Star in Tupelo and someone cut her off, she said a few choice words and started foot on the pedal to catch up to him. I looked over at my little red headed grandmother and asked what on earth are you doing. She ignored and kept punching it. Finally, caught up to this car and drove up right next to it so the person could see her. You can never guess it was a little gray haired man looking back at my little red haired grandmother giving him the little gesture. He looked in dismay and I just sank in my seat with embarrassment.. I said "Granny!!!", "He's an old man" and her reply... "If he cant see, shouldn't drive and cut me off will he?"  And you know this wasn't even the Christmas season. :) 
One thing, I can't stand is someone cutting me off and me stomping the brakes to keep from either hitting them or someone else. Warning.... if you cut me off you get the Nellie gesture.. 

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Not Today!!!!

When things are bothering you and you find yourself boggled down, mind racing or heart heavy and you know that whatever you try is not gonna be the answer and it will mess up your day.  
You know things to be said but again, it may not make a difference.. 
Try saying to yourself...........NOT TODAY!!!  
Not Today, will I think about them or Not Today with my answer. Today, I will have a good day. Yes, this may seem as if it is the "Scarlet O'Hara" way to go about it, but it kind of make sense. Why do what is the inevitable when you are upset or dreading the task. Take time out be there for yourself, first, then go do or say what needs to be.  but....... NOT TODAY!

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Why do we try?

How does it make you feel when someone that you care for, deeply, or for someone you are trying to help? When you try all you can to be there and all you that seems to happen is door shut in your face. Or you get ignored or most often cold shoulder. Why? When all you want to do is to be there for them, show you are different from the others that have taken and never given. We don't do it for praise or pat on back, we do it because of heart. 
I hear stories all the time on this subject and how others handle, some get to the point that they no longer care, others just walk away and most often, some, keep trying. 
I have been one of each of these at one time or the other and let me tell you, I have sworn off these type people but always seem to find them or they find me. I keep saying that I must have a sign "invisible sign" that only those type can see it and hone in on me, but as I sit and think about each situation, I find that maybe it's part of my purpose here on earth. I can't take it as a burden to me but as a part of what is good in me to give to another. If we keep seeing the bad there can never be any desire for the goodness or greatness in another. But do not get me wrong, there are times when you just have to walk away but it's not for the lack of trying. It's them. They are not ready, they still have a journey and they will take with them what you did/said to/for them and one day they will have that kindness or love;whatever you were chosen to help them with.
I will keep trying and know that every door/word closed,ignored,shouted is one closer to the day they will show someone love, friendship. 
Don't get me wrong, there is true evil in this world but at one time they/it did have a some form of heart. 

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On Faith

I watch the news and I hear how a war on religion in our country and around the world is happening. How can this be? Have we become to secular and out of touch that we either do not care or do not notice?  This world is big enough for any religion and all people that want live and worship in peace and have kindness to their fellow man. 
 I know some people do not have any type of religious beliefs, that's okay too.  We are people, individuals created with a mind and power within us to find a common ground in all things. Just because one doesn't believe in the same religion or have certain beliefs, doesn't deserve to be jailed or killed. That's being small minded and someone, in my opinion, that doesn't truly believe. Oh, there are some that want to kill in the name of their beliefs but you know.. they are cowards, if you are not willing to fight the cause yourself , why the hell are you sending out those that kill for sake of beliefs.. what glory?  absolutely none.  they are killed by you as well as other innocent souls.
What I am saying, is ---- this world is made up of Christians, Jews, Catholics, Muslim,  Methodist,Lutheran .Presbyterian  and a great many others (forgive me if I missed anyone)  that live by the belief that all on earth are created equal and are to be treated with respect-- whether it be man, woman, or child.What one person or religious group has the right to take a life, in the name of religion... No one but God or Powers that be should cause death. 
Have we all gotten so out of touch that we judge people by what religion or beliefs they have? We shouldn't , not if they live by the faith of human kindness and want to exist in a peaceful world.
Peace--- now that is a new concept... I am not naive or living in a utopia cloud, just that living peacefully amongst one another without the fear of persecution of ones faith.

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Ole Wives Tales

I grew up in the South. And as I write this, I am not sure if this is just a "southern thing" or not. What I am talking about is Ole Wives Tales, you know what I am talking about. Anyone one of us that were born before the 80's, either had a relative that lived by them or your parents did.. 
There are so many out that it's hard to pin point one, but I will take a few that I grew up with. But, before I go into a few, I will let those of you who may have no clue to what Ole Wives Tales are:  Words handed down by older women to the younger generation and most often considered to be superstition or folklore  and often  center on women's  traditional concerns,  pregnancy, puberty, social  relations and health. 

During the holidays would be the time I remember using them the most. like for New Year's Eve -what you do at the end of the year, you will do the next. I never wash clothes on New Year's Eve or Day. Another one that my grandmother was a stickler about is... no going outside on New Year's and if you do bring a stick back in with you.  Makes no sense but we made sure we abide by these tales. 
Here are a few more that I remember:     An Apple a day  -keeps the doctor away or Breaking a Mirror - brings 7 years bad luck.   How about Don't Cross Your Eyes - they will get stuck that way and how about Toads give you warts.  I can tell you, growing up with these "tales" were funny, at times, because they made no sense. 

As I said earlier, I am no sure if this is just a Southern woman epithets or if they were used by any "ole wife". Some of them were so far out in left field, you would wonder if these old women were drinking other than water...... As off the wall as they sound, keep in mind that some have been proven.  Well what do you know I guess these women knew what they were talking about.  I start to tell my girls about them and they come over to me and check my forehead and ask if I am feeling okay.  

You know, I miss those times that I thought silly and nonsensical. They were the times that seemed simple then.  

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My Best Friends

I was thinking of these wonderful women tonight. We grew up together and after losing touch after high school,(yes, even my cousin), we finally had a mini-30th class reunion last year.. 
As we were all sitting at the restaurant and began catching up on marriage, divorces, children, careers and just plain life, we started talking about high school and it was as if we picked up where we left off. I didn't realize just how much I have missed them. And as we were sitting there, I didn't see us as the age we are now, but the 18 year old full of life and nothing could stop us, but I think we all feel that way in our youth.  We would take the world by storm and take no hostages.. It's funny how life throws us curve balls. We had so many plans, I was going to be a famous actress or model and be married to... well, they all know who.. :), one wanted to be a photographer, one a dental hygienist and the others had their plans. Again, that dang curve ball. Life just takes hold and things are pushed back until we look up and time has passed by.  
Since that day, we try our best to talk or text as much as we can.. (thank goodness for the devices we have now, when we were in school   no cells, no computers) and plan on getting together for our 50th birthdays coming up next year, I can't wait. 
It has been an honor knowing these amazing, talented women and as we grow older, I hope there are many more memories to share and make.   So glasses up for Jackye, Lysha, Denise, Vickey, Peggy, Alissa and to our lasting friendship.   I have missed you and I love you.   

My point--- keep those who are dear close to you and by chance you lose your way.......  Remember that which once was old can be new again... 

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Bobbie's Takes: Forgiveness

Bobbie's Takes: Forgiveness: Forgiveness  is the intentional and voluntary process by which a victim undergoes a change in feelings and attitude regarding an offense, le...

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is the intentional and voluntary process by which a victim undergoes a change in feelings and attitude regarding an offense, lets go of negative emotions such as revenge, with an increased ability to wish the offender well.

Do you have those in your world that can seem to never get it right?  They mess up and say forgive me? You do and then they do it again. Same vicious cycle. 
Why do we continue?  I don't know the answer to that. Maybe, because we care? We want to help them? I know for myself, I am a fixer and a giver. I always try to find out why they do these things and make them see and low and behold they change their ways...... not always.  
Hey, I am guilty of this as well. I say to myself that I am not going to say or do that again and not too far down the road, I hit a mudslide and there I do again. Same crap different day, kinda thing.  Some of those "forgive me" were over and over and it's not that your friends and family get tired of the talking and the helping, it's me/them/you. They/You can forgive all day long but until they take responsibility for it, the cycle will continue. I remember a time when I was talking to someone and was crying and carrying on to how stupid I was for repeating this crazy thing.. Forgive me, forgive me.. She said to me, I already have and God will always forgive you, but you need to forgive yourself. Unless you honestly forgive yourself, you can never move forward. Forgiving yourself is a great key to healing and not repeating this cycle... IF and I repeat IF you are truly wanting a change.
I guess what I am trying to say ...is.... Forgive them over and over for as your nature of heart and set them down and in their lowest time of calling/crying out.........  Let them know that God has and will always forgive them and he is just waiting for them/you to forgive yourself.  

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My animals and the Christmas Tree

Well as you know, I have my tree up and my girls like it. But, it has to stay on 24 hours a day. Why? Why you ask? I have twin kittens who love looking at the lights. Every time I go to turn off the tree, one or both go and slap at the ornaments or try biting on the lights. As soon as I turn them back on, they leave the tree alone. 
 I don't have presents underneath at the moment. If I do, my dog goes up underneath and tries to find hers... They are so funny to watch.. so mom accommodates all of my little ones. Keep the tree going 24/7 so the twins and the dogs can look at the sparkling lights. 
It goes to show that all creatures great and small love a Christmas Tree.  As I stated before with the cats in the tree and the dogs under the tree, all I need is a squirrel to make my Griswald Christmas complete..

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Bobbie's Takes: A sad and personal story.

Bobbie's Takes: A sad and personal story.: I am going to tell you a very personal story. This is not political nor is it about religion. This is a personal take on what happened to me...

A sad and personal story.

I am going to tell you a very personal story. This is not political nor is it about religion. This is a personal take on what happened to me, that changed my views on abortion. Now in saying this, I still believe that a woman has a choice but in my view, not getting the correct information, but I suppose whichever you choose or whomever you decide to listen to .. is the correct information to that individual. As do most, I too, looked into abortion and options and religious beliefs vs. medical.. So much information out there, you get confused.  I never thought it was a right decision for me but I can understand how faced with this decision, it can be the only solution to some.  Every human being is born with their own minds, beliefs and one doctor is different than the next.  

One morning, I was awakened by a deep pain in my abdomen and blood streaming down my bed and when I say streaming, I actually mean it. A huge pool of blood in my bed and then it was flowing down the side onto the floor. 
I began to cry, uncontrollably and called my sister to watch my daughter while I drove myself to the hospital. My fiance was at work and I could not wait for him to get there..  
While at the hospital they rushed me back to a room and of course asking the normal questions and doing the normal test.The doctor came in and said that I may be losing the baby but wanted to do a sonogram to see the baby. The nurses came in wheeled me to another room and proceeded to fill my bladder with water so that we could get a better view of the baby, it overflowed, I mean, like a river gushing, all in the floor and all over me and running out the door onto the equipment. The nurses were looking at each other in a state of panic and moving things around trying not to get me shocked or them by the flow of water. In the midst of moving the equipment, they happened to have turned the monitor(that they wouldn't let me see during the test) toward me.. of course, they were not paying attention to me as I was watching on the monitor of this little pea pod looking thing moving about inside.. Every time the blood would go inside one area, thing would move to another spot and then the same would happen.  I watched in amazement because all that I was told. That at 12 weeks, really isn't anything, I found it to be the opposite. Right at that moment, I began to cry as I watched my baby drown, drown in my own blood, trying to save itself but no where to go. I began to pray out loud, I don't know why. 
As the water was being cleaned up and finally the nurses could put their attention back to me, they noticed that the monitor was turned to me, they asked if I had moved it, how could I ? The looked at each other and whispered and all I could hear was one stating, "oh,no" .. I interrupted and asked was this my baby and they nodded and unhooked me and left the room. The doctor came back in with the results and told me that my placenta had come loose (so to speak) and causing a hemorrhage and losing the baby.. 
I was admitted for observation and later that evening the nurse and doctor came in as I was praying and crying and sat with me.. held my hand and said these things happen and they were going to release me and on Sunday wanted me to come back in for the hormone level test to see what level it would be.. I spoke up and said "what if it is up" "is there hope".. The nurse took my hand again and said.. "honey, there is no hope for your baby".  I began sobbing again and she gave me a hug and said that it would be okay. At that time, this is not what I wanted to hear.  Right??
From that moment, it changed my life and my thinking of a fetus, baby issue.. When I watched that little being trying to save itself and could not, everything as I stated earlier went out the window.. My views changed to a point for ME. It was for me, that the Lord showing the decision I was going to make was the wrong one. What I was told was not the case, for me and what I believe in.. If this little being had no feeling, how could it ..in that moment ... keep moving to a place in the womb, I know , trying to save himself.  ??
This was my son, I watched drown... You can never tell me that was nothing.. 

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A simple little recipe..

Here is a simple cornbread recipe that my grandmother gave to me years ago. 

Cornmeal (which ever you use; white, yellow... I use self-rising)
mayonnaise 
water.. 

Simple.

Depending on how much you make, I use about 2-3 cups of cornmeal
as well as depending on how much you make.. I put 1 tablespoon of mayonnaise and then add your water  1/2 to 1 cup or more.. depending.

Mix together and add to an already greased pan.
I set in the oven at 350 for about 20 minutes 

This cornbread is the best.. it is melt in your mouth good.

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Bobbie's Takes: My pet peev

Bobbie's Takes: My pet peev: I have a few things that get under my skin  and none more than the word "hoe".    Every time I hear it .. I yell out "what ...

My pet peev

I have a few things that get under my skin  and none more than the word "hoe".   
Every time I hear it .. I yell out "what in the hell is a hoe?'
Now come one, I know what a hoe is.. you take it to the garden and start digging..... Not a jargon for a woman of the evening or red light district girl or call it what it is a w$$$e (see the dollar signs). This drives me nuts. When I heard someone say "look at that hoe" i looked around and said "what hoe".. didn't have a clue that it was for a woman standing there and I looked at them and said "What the hell is a hoe?" "What language are you speaking?'  It's a garden tool.
If this is PC it's gone a muck or if this is slang.. Speak proper English. No wonder our education is going to hell in a hand basket. This is ridiculous, to me, this is just laziness and not at all cute. 
Hey here is an idea, if you see one of these "hoes" as you call them.. Instead of making fun or seeming not to care about them... why do you not go and talk to them, maybe you are what they need to want to change their way of life....

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Bobbie's Takes: My little song of Let It Snow..... Enjoy

Bobbie's Takes: My little song of Let It Snow..... Enjoy: The weather outside is frosty but the fire is warm and toasty and since i've no place to go let it snow let it snow let it snow It shows...

My little song of Let It Snow..... Enjoy

The weather outside is frosty
but the fire is warm and toasty
and since i've no place to go
let it snow let it snow let it snow

It shows some signs of icing
and I have a cake for slicing
I will turn the lights way down low
and watch the tree all a glow

My fire is slowly dying
and if i said i cared, i'm lying
cause i've got no place to go
let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

I've had lots of egg nog and it's tasty
So I don't mind the roads being nasty
As long as I've got a glow
let it snow, let it snow, let it snow




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Bobbie's Takes: Bobbie, Pay Attention!!

Bobbie's Takes: Bobbie, Pay Attention!!: Another Pay Attention, Bobbie, moment.. One night my roommate and I and some of her relatives were out and about shopping, clubbing and de...

Bobbie, Pay Attention!!

Another Pay Attention, Bobbie, moment..

One night my roommate and I and some of her relatives were out and about shopping, clubbing and decided to go the the Chinese restaurant on West Main Street in Tupelo. It was my first time there and they were from front to back covered. 
Of course, me and my "pink bunny" mouth.. talk, talk, talk.  The poor waitress had to even wait on me to get my drink order. The waitress asked if we wanted any appetizers and of course we did... 
But let's back up for a second. At that time, I did not eat Chinese... or much..and did not know a lot about the menus and what dishes were better than others.  (I love Chinese food now)
Sherry ordered egg rolls and a few wantons. The waitress brings our drinks and appetizers and sets down some yellow stuff and red stuff that I had to ask what it was.. yellow stuff-hot mustard and red stuff is sweet sour sauce.  I shrugged and said okay and kept on talking. As we were laughing and talking, I picked up one of the egg rolls and dipped it into the mustard, Sherry said to me, "Bobbie do you know what you are about to eat?" to which I replied "yes".. She said "I don't think you do."  I shrugged and still not paying attention and opened my mouth to take a big bite out of that egg roll and the mouth shuts for a taste and what do you think happened? 
 My eyes wide open, the mouth goes into a solid "o" shape and face turns red. I couldn't get to the water fast enough or drink enough, I even grabbed the water pitcher from the next table, who also saw what had happened and were rolling in the floor as was the "sweet" people at my table.  
When I could finally speak with tears rolling down my face from the heat.. I said "What in the world is that?"  Sherry trying to talk from laughter says she tried to warn me and that I was about to take a bite out of hot mustard but I didn't listen. I replied, "yes, but you should have stated hot, blow your goozle out hot, I love hot and thought it would be hot." Sherry's reply... "Bobbie Pay Attention!!"  .. they were all having a time at my expense that evening, justly deserved.. :) 

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Dean Martin - Let it Snow!

Bobbie's Takes: Singing the blues away.. :)

Bobbie's Takes: Singing the blues away.. :): I have been feeling a little blue of late and I decided to go out shopping. While I was out in my on little zone and looking what to purchas...

Singing the blues away.. :)

I have been feeling a little blue of late and I decided to go out shopping. While I was out in my on little zone and looking what to purchase, I was listening to the song, Christmas song, it made me feel better.. I noticed I began walking a little faster and smiling a little more and then all of a sudden, I heard the song getting louder and to my amazement I was singing along. I stopped for a moment and said to myself that I needed that and continued singing out loud.   

My point to this is when you are feeling down and out hum your favorite song or start singing. You will find that all your woe's cease to exist for that moment, anyway.  It does make you feel better. 

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Abba - Take A Chance On Me--- get those muscles working---- dance.. :)

My own Chinese recipe

I have a recipe that you need to try. My sister and I made this one up years ago. I was going into my Senior year at school.

Pretty simple really only about 30 mintues to prepare.. and the best thing with this recipe.. You can add or substitute any ingredient, meat or vegetable. I make my dinner with small steaks or stew meat.
 2-4 people

1 - 1 to 1-1/2 lbs of stew meat
1  - large tomato
1 - bundle of green onions
1 - clove of garlic
4- packages of Beef Romin Noodles
1 - head of cabbage

In a medium sauce pan on medium heat add oil (any oil you want to use) I use olive oil. 
Cut meat into small pieces and add to pan and oil. 
Cut up tomato into small cubes 
Cut the green onions into small pieces  
Smash and cut up the clove of garlic
   Add the tomato and green onions and garlic to the meat as it is cooking
   Do not over cook... you can add 1c of water for the steaming process 
   After the meat is cooked to your taste and the vegetables are tender add your noodles and about 2 cups of water and cook until noodles are tender.. 
   While this is cooking cut up the cabbage and add to boiling water. Cook until tender.
    Drain cabbage and add saucepan of meat and vegetables and noodles and then add the packets of beef flavoring and serve.  

This is a simple recipe.. and as I stated you can substitute for pork, shrimp, chicken any meat you choose and add any vegetable, at times, I use hot peppers, bell peppers, mushrooms, water chestnuts and it works to whatever noodles I am using whether it be chicken, oriental, pork, beef . 
You can also leave off the cabbage and noodles and just use the rice with flavoring packets. 

Anyone wanting to try this .. Please do, it has been a favorite in our family for years..   If you do, let me know how you liked it. 

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Bobbie's Takes: The night with false teeth..

Bobbie's Takes: The night with false teeth..: Another funny story about my roommate, Sherry.   One night, Sherry and I were out at the Hilton having drink after a long day at work and ...

The night with false teeth..

Another funny story about my roommate, Sherry.  

One night, Sherry and I were out at the Hilton having drink after a long day at work and when we arrived back at the apartment instead of going straight to bed she and I were in her room (she had a over sized King bed), we were watching television and talking about life and work. 
I fell asleep and during the night I kept hearing the sheets ruffling and waving about, at first, I didn't pay attention and just tried going back to sleep. No, didn't happen, not only were the sheets waving about, I started feeling Sherry patting on the bed. She was literally on her hands and knees on the bed patting about, frantically.  She was so funny and if you could have seen her, you would have started laughing  as I did. I sat up and asked if she was okay and after a simple head shake yes, she says to go back to sleep.. I tried, seriously, I tried but the patting  became more like a pounding and she was now throwing the sheets about instead of waving them around. Finally, I had enough and sat up again and asked if everything was okay, again she shakes her head yes, by now, I am paying attention to her as that I am completely awake and notice her holding her mouth. 
After noticing her holding her hand over her mouth and now a bit worried, I turned on the night light and ask her, "Sherry what is wrong?" "You are holding your hand to your mouth and I can barely here you talk".. Well, now, let me begin to tell you, at this point in our friendship and being roommates, I never knew she had false teeth until that night. She says "okay, I was trying to find them before you woke up, but not the case so I will tell you.... I wear false teeth or a bridge on my upper jaw."  I told her that it was okay and her secret would be safe with me and I would help her try to find them. We searched all over that bed to no avail and finally we gave up and went back to sleep.  
 During the third time of trying to sleep, I started tossing and turning and turning and tossing and flailing my legs about trying to get comfortable and as I finally started to get comfortable and settle down, my foot hit something in the bed... cold and felt like it bit me.  I didn't want to wake Sherry because of  her being awake for so long looking for her missing piece so I nervously pulled my feet up to my chest and sat up to start patting the bed to find out what that was. I slipped my hands under the covers to grab the culprit and to my amazement, it was the missing teeth.. I started screaming in a bit of fright. In the half darkness those white teeth looked a bit frightening to a 19 year old. Sherry jumped up and I yelled stating I think I found your teeth and what were they doing on my side of the bed and down by my feet.."They bit me", I said.  
Bless her, without saying another word, she grabbed them and put them in her mouth and said .. "Whew, I thought maybe I had swallowed them"... "Really, really!!!" I replied... Then looked over at her and she was smiling and I knew she was trying to get my mind away from the incident and we just laughed..
No more sleeping after that. We got up and went out for breakfast with teeth in tow. 

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Bobbie's Takes: My adventure/Ireland

Bobbie's Takes: My adventure/Ireland: I came here for some enlightenment. What I found was me.. myself. I found that- after telling myself how crazy it was to go traipsing across...

My adventure/Ireland

I came here for some enlightenment. What I found was me.. myself. I found that- after telling myself how crazy it was to go traipsing across the other side of the world, with no direction, not a particular place but just to take off and go. How could a mother of 3, with a business just take off and do such a thing?
What I found was courage and a fight inside of me that I didn't think I had or would ever have, but I do. It takes courage to get on a plane by yourself and go across the ocean to another country (when you have never been out of the States) and knowing no one. After getting there, meeting up with the person you met on a website and the two of you picking up a car and just driving around for 10 wonderful days.
Seeing things I only read about or seen on the screen and may I add, it's much more lovely in person. I stepped off the plane and was mesmerized. When I saw the castles my minds eye could go back in time to imagine how it must have been around that era as these magnificent structures. How my mind wandered. 
To see the things I have seen and done and oh my lord, the people, the people are absolutely wonderful. I loved how they talked; I blended in with my red hair and light skin until I opened my mouth.. "You must be from America?" How could they tell??
I say it took courage and determination for me to take this adventure. I felt something spiritual would happen but maybe not in the sense I was expecting, but a sense in my soul. A sense of strength and faith and a deeper love for something other than myself. I fell in love with this country I visited and all I could see was the beauty and the richness of heritage and it was at my touch. How awesome!!! 
How lucky I am, to have the life I have. 
This journey has given my free spirited nature more wings to fly and test myself on things that I have found afraid to do/try and has shown me so much of myself and has awakened the fire inside.  I have found in me strength, courage and sensibility to do what I can, It's my life.
This journey in Ireland is over for me but I will return again someday (soon) and as I tell my daughters' of my time here,my hope for them is to see it now while they are young, but you know, I am not sure they would appreciate it right now in their lives. It has taken me to my age of 49 to take this journey/adventure and I can see the wondrous beauty this country holds.. 
My journey may be over but my adventure continues as I head back home to the States.  

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Best Christmas Songs Playlist (Part 1) (+playlist)

Bobbie's Takes: Big brother and his pranks

Bobbie's Takes: Big brother and his pranks: When I was just a young teenager, my older brother started dating our soon-to-be and now sister-in-law, we were out sitting on the car looki...

Big brother and his pranks

When I was just a young teenager, my older brother started dating our soon-to-be and now sister-in-law, we were out sitting on the car looking up at the meteor shower and were talking about how pretty the stars were that evening when all of a sudden out of the corner of my eye, I saw a white shadowy figure at corner of our house and it went behind another car.. 
I sat up on the car and looked out and oh my lord.. it was a ghost.. not like a ghost ghost but a ghostly figure creeping toward us. By this time, I am trying to scream and what do you know --- not a dang thing coming out of this mouth, oh , the mouth was moving but not a single sound coming out. I starting poking at my sister  and brother's girlfriend to take a look and they were just ignoring me, meanwhile, I kept watching that "figure" getting closer and still not able to say a word, I came off that car like a bolt of lightning and then my sister and Joy paid attention and finally saw what I was frantically trying to get them to see. 
Meanwhile, this figure had come toward the back of the car we were sitting on and creeping slowly toward us, they started screaming, jumped off the car and at this time, I was on the door steps banging on the door; they(Becky/Joy) ran up those steps and starting yelling and screaming trying to get the door opened; it was locked. 
The "figure"  was almost upon us and about to grab us, all of a sudden, the lights come on and the sheet comes off... It was my brother.. Dang his hide... We could have killed him that night. Mom and dad were in the house rolling with laughter and here I am about to wet my pants from fright. We chased him all over the yard with anything we could find to throw.. 
What started out with watching scary movies at the drive in and coming home to unwind with a beautiful show of lights in the sky turned out to be another fright night with big brother and his pranks.. Gotta love him. 

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Bobbie's Takes: Shopping

Bobbie's Takes: Shopping: Started my Christmas shopping today.. It wasn't so bad out there, but of course, it was still early yet. I am marking off the lists line...

Shopping

Started my Christmas shopping today.. It wasn't so bad out there, but of course, it was still early yet. I am marking off the lists line by line and hopefully, will not leave anything out, this year. The list from the girls' are getting shorter but that short list is getting more expensive.. :)  
I even had to go scoping for the 4-legged girls, especially the "Diva".. she snoops under the tree every year and when I show her which gift is hers, the little toot keeps dragging it out from under the tree.. She is so spoiled, but just wait until Christmas, she is always helping unwrap everyone's gifts,thinking that we have hidden another one for her...
A few Santa's were at their post and children already in a line to see them. i remember taking our girls to see the jolly ole fella. Seemed as if we stayed in line for hours only to get up there and our baby start to cry as soon as he said Hello and then my oldest would talk and talk to make sure Santa did not forget anything on her list.
I know this can be a hectic time but if we take the time to set back and try to take it in stride and remember that the gifts are just a small part of the big day that is coming; Christ our Lord is the true reason and family time, gathering around the tree and or table for great food, talk and laughter... and always song and someone would come around with "Twas the Night Before Christmas" and we all sat with eyes glowing and ears listening for that jolly old man and his reindeer. I sing to my girls to this day at Christmas time and always giving praise to what the season really means.. yeah, the gifts are fine... but the true reason is always looking down on us, on Christmas Day and everyday.  

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My funny start to Christmas

The tree is up, cat climbed in tree and dog knocked down ornaments to play with them and the kittens are trying to bite into the pretty little lights... I am going to have a Griswald Christmas.. :)  

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What does it say for you?

How can some people come into your world and seem to drive you to distraction? 
You give your everything and they seem to take what they want and then by the flick of a wand, they are gone or treat you badly.
What does that say for us? Does it show weakness? Does it show that we are gullible? Or just that we are "stupid stamped", for allowing them in our lives in the first place??
Whatever you call it and however your actions to their non/reactions is up to the individual. We are only human.. We can lash out, keep it inside, pitch a tizzy of a fit, smile, cry or a number of things that help us cope.  We decide, most often times, we go about our vindications  the wrong way, but as I said earlier,we are only human.  I guess it depends on how much we invested in that relationship with that person, whether it be a friend, a co-worker or lover, husband or relative. At times, we find ourselves down the road of anger, more so,than needed but it happens.
The "Good Book" states that God made us in his own image and I find  this fascinating. I have to ask, putting aside science, when that pop of thunder and lightning comes across the sky and makes you hold your ears and stand and take notice, is this where the Lord has had enough and this his lashing out or when the rain falls down, could it be the Lord crying out for the love of the people? 
Back to my questions of us and those we let in---- I don't think it means that at all, even though, we feel that way.  It shows that we are compassionate and have a heart for our fellow man/woman and whether it be friend, family, lover, relative.. we try the best we can. Is there such a thing as loving or giving to much for those we have invested in??

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Happy Thanksgiving from my family to yours..

Happy Thanksgiving

Today, our feast came off without a hitch... everything as perfect can be for the Wigginton clan, even though the lights went out earlier this morning. I had just put the eggs on to boil and the cornbread in the oven when darkness came in and stayed for about an hour.  

My cornbread dressing (grandmother's and dad's recipe) was "almost" to perfection, this year. :)  The turkey was moist and tender along with the ham... melt in your mouth, tasty, Brad loves preparing the mean, so I leave that up to him to do.  The other sides were delicious as well and those rolls what more could I say.  

Of course, I take chapter out of my mom's book and  nibble or taste while I am cooking and when dinner finally is done.. I am not so hungry but I get a small portion anyway.. 

I am so glad to have this new family tradition with my family... It means so much. 

Now  time for the Christmas Tree and where to put it this year... Hmmmm, maybe over there?? :)

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Stop smell the Roses

I remember my grandmother telling me to stop and smell the roses. I never really understood what that meant, until now. 
My grandmother always loved going places(i guess this is where my free spirit comes from) loved foraging in the woods, we would walk for miles or drive for miles just so she could see the trees and flowers. She loved nature. Everything seemed fresh and new to her. 
I remember we would be out driving and she would say, "Look at that cloud" "isn't it beautiful?" To me, just a cloud.. I never could see what she saw. 
She seemed to know every name of the trees, to me, just a tree. 
Every flower seemed to catch her eye..  She loved every one of them. They were beautiful, but to me, just flowers. 
I was always in a hurry to get back, had my own things to do, and she would always say.. "one day, these roses will not smell so sweet".. "Take a look around you and take it in, all the beautiful trees, flowers and the sky; it will all change one day as it usually does and you will look back and will want to take the time to just be"... I never knew what she meant,thought it was just one of those talks that grown ups usually said to the kids when they were trying to make some kind of point,which we weren't interested in. 
But,I understand Until Now--- I find myself walking out onto my deck and just looking at all the trees and how beautiful they truly are, every limb has a story of life, every leaf is as different as a fingerprint.  A pine tree is different from an oak or river berch or the smell of a sweet magnolia.. mmmm brings back great memories. 
Those flowers, all those flowers that i refused to look at as a kid, how amazing they seem today... I love the pansies every spring and ferns and anything I can put in my garden that I hope will grow, see unlike my grandmother, I do not have a green thumb, but I do the best I can for the time they remain.  
And those, clouds, how many times have I looked up and seen them roll by and not really pay attention. Now, I look up and usually can tell what type of cloud that is rolling by, Cumulus or Nimbus, mostly  but how amazing they look, at times, it seems that if you hold your hand up, you could touch the big cotton balls floating along in that big beautiful blue sky.
I guess my story is or what my grandmother was trying to tell me........is to slow down and don't forget to look at what is around you.. what you have.. because one day, you will go looking for it and it's not as sweet as it once was.   Stop and smell the roses..

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